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Dear God

2012-02-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

God, please give me courage.
Give me the kinda of endless courage whereby I won't be able lose them when anything happens.
Everytime I took out the courage to leave, you make me lose all my courage.
I'm so angry with myself. Grrr.
God, please give me the determination.
I don't want to back out on my word.
I don't want to be mind fucked.
I don't want to be manipulated.
I don't want to be thinking about it every single moment.
I don't want to be the me now.
I wished I was smarter, wiser, cleverer or whatever you call it.
I hate the me now. Don't know what I'm thinking, doing and feeling.
There is a lot of should nots that I've done. Sigh.
God, please guide me to the correct path I should take.
I don't want anybody to be hurt.

How could I ever live with this?

2012-02-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

Did this while seeing Yvaine study at Starbucks.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day!

2012-02-15T13:04:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day my friends! :D
Or should I say Happy Belated Valentine's Day. Haha.
Did my pouch for BBGS and the alien girls. Haha.
Rainbow colours. :D
I guess I can try sewing more things and sell them during our flea or at our soon-to-be-opened-but-not-yet-done blogshop.
I didn't know handicrafts can be so fun as well.
Did this while I was waiting for Yvaine today.

Is it nice? Haha.
I'm DIY dot com.

煎熬

2012-02-14T13:12:00.001+08:00

女: 剛好　我們擁有彼此尋找的好
　　可惜不太湊巧在錯的時候情路上遇到
男: 若不是不忍心看你兩難中煎熬
　　不然我絕不肯這樣眼睜睜　看妳重回他懷抱

女: 嘴角勉強撐起了笑　也要讓你看到最後一絲的驕傲
男: 因為妳說　說到做到　提的起放的下　才有男人的味道
女: 我不是不知道　沒有你的日子會有多麼煎熬
男: 就算是我傻的可笑　失去當成得到
　　只要能夠對你好　我都會做到

男: 若不是不忍心看你兩難中煎熬
　　不然我絕不肯這樣眼睜睜　看妳重回他懷抱
女: 嘴角勉強撐起了笑　也要讓你看到最後一絲的驕傲
男: 因為妳說　說到做到　提的起放的下　才有男人的味道
女: 我不是不知道　沒有你的日子會有多麼煎熬
合: 就算是我傻的可笑　失去當成得到　只要能夠對你好

女: 你是否懂我的感受
男: 說走卻捨不得掉頭
女: 我不該愛的太重
男: 讓妳我如此難過
合: 為何我愛的一切　沒有結果

女: 嘴角勉強撐起了笑　也要讓你看到最後一絲的驕傲
男: 因為妳說　說到做到　提的起放的下　才有男人的味道
女: 我不是不知道　沒有你的日子會有多麼煎熬
男: 就算是我傻的可笑　失去當成得到
合: 只要能夠對你好　我都會做到

Unsaid words

2012-02-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

I went to edit those photos I took and added some quotes I found on the internet and some I came up on my own. :D

2012-02-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

Did a photo collage for myself!

Consists of photos w BBGS and the 1012A. :D

Halfway done now. Left w the empty spaces.

I don't know what I should do with the empty spaces.

Still deciding yeah. Haha.

I'm gna stick this onto my wall!! :D

Lovely! :D I enjoy doing this!

Anyway, yesterday I tried bring my bunny to Canberra Park for a walk.
And apparently he enjoys it and love the nature!
Kept on running around the grass.
Guess I should bring them down more often.
But the bad thing is, I'll have to check for ticks and bathe them afterwards.
Thats kinda troublesome ah. LOL.

2012-02-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Woo. I'm back to blogging yeah.
My eyes. One big one small. Kinda obvious ah. o.O
I used to always use this emoticon: o.O
And now it came true! -.- LOOL.

My right eye looks bigger. LOL.
*points to my right eye*

So addicted to this song! And I'm starting to like GLEE!
Haha. I realised glee sings better than the original singer.
Love it. :D There are many more other songs.

Oh ya, and my Audition is finally installed.
Can play audition now. :D
More things to do at home. Wahaha.
Its time to find a job yeah. Enough of resting for 2 months.
I need income and money!!

2012-01-22T01:51:00.001+08:00

But anyway I'm feeling much better now.
No worries.
Guess I'm drowsy or what. LOL.
I'm okay now. :D
Can enjoy my CNY, although not as enjoyable but still okay. :D

2012-01-22T01:41:00.004+08:00

When some things happened, things can never be the same again.
When some things are lost, they can never be recovered again.

Its like when you fall into a trap hole, its really hard to get it out.
So you tried to climb out of the hole but the walls are full of needles.
So either way, you will still die.

Why did you come and invade my life when I was perfectly satisfied with my life?
Don't you know I'm may appear cheerful but Geminis are ppl who are damn emotional?

But oh well, humans will only learn when they have been through hard times.
Guess I have learnt a lot. :D
It isn't a bad thing afterall.

Whats more, quoted from SW : True friends will always be there for you and always forgive you. But for bf/gf things may not always be that case.

DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU'RE DAMN BLESSED???

好人没好报, 我也要做坏人了.

這只是一場意外

2012-01-21T11:06:00.001+08:00

那天我化成一隻翩翩的燕
飛到了你的身邊
轉個彎繞個圈飛去飛來好幾遍
你注視著我眼光跟著我迴旋
從此我迷失了我的方向
跌落在那平凡的人間

這只是一場意外
我的心渴望著藍天大海
不想流淚不想悲哀
不想拘束不想等待
燕兒只想飛燕兒只想飛
飛向那高高的天邊以外

那天我化成一隻翩翩的燕
闖進了你的花園
東看看西看看
悄悄停在你眼前
你注視著我眼底充滿了愛憐
從此我我的世界一片零亂
你也跟著我不停的轉

Bathroom mirror prank

2012-01-20T00:58:00.001+08:00

This is super hilarious!!!
Can't stop laughing at this.

We not naughty

2012-01-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

Went to watch We Not Naughty today with Fel and Yvaine.
Damn funny and sad.
Its super nice lah. Can't stop crying and laughing.
Its a very meaningful show I think.
Its worth it to watch it!!
Taught us how WEI DA our mothers are.
Giving birth is not easy. Seriously.
Family is very important.
Family ties will never change.
Bear that in mind.

And bought New Era cap!!! Red colour.
YAY. Everyone in our clique have the New Era cap. :D

Saw this cat lying on the grass while walking across the pathway.
Damn CUTE!
Too bad I don't dare to touch it.
Scared it has germs or ticks. :(

This is so damn sweet.
Long distance relationship.
But frankly speaking, I think its damn awkward to be tgt with someone you have not met before but has been tgt for 2 years via the internet.
The girl is from Sweden and the guy is from Singapore.
They finally got to meet each other last christmas after dating for 2 years on the internet.
Well, their love has to be strong enough to maintain this long distance relationship.

Funny photos!

2012-01-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. This was what Yvaine and Rayson did to our photos.
LOL. Damn funny. They used an app called Transphoto.
Damn funny. Can't stop laughing till now.
There is still many more up on facebook. Hahaha.
Can't stop laughing at them!! LOOOL.
Shall go and do the same thing back to their photos. Hehe.

Anyway, download an app called Doctor Battery on iPhone.
It is suppose to help you to save battery power and protects your battery.
Can give it a try. :D

Dim Sum

2012-01-17T23:34:00.001+08:00

Went to Yum Cha at Chinatown for dim sum buffet.
Cost around $19.80++ per person from 3pm to 6pm.
Well, the food was awesome!
Siew Mai and Ha gao were damn nice.
The desserts were nice too. Like almond tea, herbal jelly, lemon grass jelly and mango pudding.
Its worth to give it a try.
OH and their tea was nice too. We had Pu Er cha.
Shall go to other restaurants to try their dim sum too.
We didn't eat a lot though. Not worth the price.
Shouldn't eat buffet next time.

Anyway, I heard people who have the poorest memory are the happiest.
Well, this explains why I'm so cheerful.

Things will never be the same?
Well my dear friend, we still love you like how we always do (in case you don't remember).

Second place. /

Moodless

2012-01-17T12:40:00.002+08:00

A photo taken at rp ytd.
Well, so many things happened ytd.
Shall not talk about it.
Not in the mood to blog actually.
Shall end off.
Blog again at night maybe.
Gna go eat Dim Sum later.

Heart to heart talk

2012-01-15T23:59:00.030+08:00

Went to visit my ah yi at Singapore General Hospital today.
The ahyi who went to genting with us. Felt giddy during work, so hospitalised.
Nothing much now. :)
Saw the very vintage "documents postman" they used to use in the hospitals in the past.
Its like some box that travels around the tracks above the hospital ceilings.
I'm sure you would have seen it before.
Well, I was so amazed by it when I was young.
I think they no longer use it now.
But I still think its damn cool. Haha.

Finally bought my CNY lingerie. Hehe.
Think there isn't anything else to buy ba.
Maybe shoes? I'm always lacking of shoes.
Oh and bags maybe.

Went drinking with Yvaine after a day of visiting and shopping.
Well, she is my drinking khaki yo.
Only the 2 of us like to drink. The rest doesn't like.
We always go drinking one. Haha. Its has been so long since we last drank.
I think it was like during A levels period or before it. (Can't remember)
We had heart to heart talk. Talk so many stuffs.
Many thoughts, feelings, reflections, lessons learnt, regrets, fear. Everything we talked.

Its a blessing that we got to know each other.
Many people say its rare have friendship like ours. :D
We accept each other for who they are. No matter good or bad points.
If not we won't have come this far.
I'm so thankful for everything I have now.
My relationship with my family is good, I have wonderful friends like BBGS and of course sw, yq, jl, sm and 1012A.
FATE brought us together.
Even though I'm a nun now, I'm still very thankful for what I have now.

Code of the day: [好马不吃回头草, 也不吃朋友的草]

Back from flea

2012-01-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

Bought quite a lot of things today.
But none of them is from the flea.
Flea stuff is quite expensive yeah. Not a place for budget barbie.
Bought a maroon basic tank from H&M for $7.90, navy blue basic tank dress from H&M for $17.90 and the purple and grey nail polish for 2 for $1. Well they're cheap cause they are testers.
But well, we checked and many of them were still quite full, not dried yet.
Kinda worth while yeah. One for $0.50 only!!!!
Anyway we wont use the same nail polish for long.
Original price is $2.50 for one.
FYI, the shop is found at Cineleisure 2nd floor, opposite Pastamania.
The turquoise one is crack which costs $4.50 for one.
Well, looks nice. :D But kinda hard to match colour for the base.
Haha, shall have crack nails or should I say "leopard print" nails? HAHAHAHA.

Well, not bad. Quite happy with my shopping today.
Anyway, got to learn about something today.
I don't know why I feel kinda upset about it. Sigh.
I'm going to explode! LOL.

Its all a dream

2012-01-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. Had a new game.

My friend gave it to me cause her laptop graphic card is not enough.

Well, so I tried to install.

But I don't know why it won't play. Don't tell me my graphic card doesn't support it also. o.O

I never played grand theft auto before. I wanna try!!!

Anyway, my iPhone is spoilt. It doesn't have any sound or alerts when someone calls or msg me.

So... if I don't pick up ur call or don't reply, its not that I don't want to, its cause I didn't know!!

Poor phone. Should go warranty soon.

Anyway, suppose to go photoshoot with BBGS this morning at Canberra's Park.

But well, we couldn't wake up as usual. #forevercannotwakeup

Sigh. Plan so well but couldn't wake up. :(

Wanted to bring my guitar, picnic basket, Yvaine's cigarettes, our lovely clothes and accessories for the photoshoot. But FAILED.

Nvm, we still have tmr or next week. :D

I'm sure we can. ^^

We planned to take tumblrish photo like:

Hahahah. It seems super tough but well nothing is impossible!!! :D

Anyway had a very weird dream last night.

It felt so real. Haha. Wish I never woke up.

And the funny thing is I woke up and when back sleep to continue the same dream.

Guess I'm just thinking too much. :\

Sometimes I do get mixed up between reality and dream.

Reality is cruel. Sigh.

Well, gtg to go off soon.

Going to flea market at Scape and maybe Haji. :D

#budgetbarbie

How to be a typical ah lian video

2012-01-13T12:01:00.004+08:00

OMG, Hahaha. Bernice showed me this video this morning.
I think you might have seen it at facebook or twitter.
Damn popular now. Hahaha.
Damn funny. 7 steps to become a Singapore typical Ah Lian. ROFL.
Its so damn true and funny. LOL.
Can't stop laughing.
You should take a look at the video if you haven't seen it before.
You won't regret. Hahahaha.
Thumbs up to the guy!!!! :D
I shall follow his twitter @OnlyNoah

Btw, my name is apple gobangwall georgioarmani louis vuitton.
Hahahahhahaha.

Frisbee photo shoot

2012-01-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

This photo looks lesbianish. LOL.

Acting candid. Haha.

I love this photo the most! :D Haha. Love it!!

The sunset was really beautiful today. :D

Took many photos today and even did a cover with kar for the song The one that got away.

Haha. Our frisbee outing became a photo shoot. LOOL.

Haha. That was my foot.

Yvaine, kar and I prank the rest of the BBGS that I tripped and broke my toe.

Haha. And they believed.

So funny, they even told them we're on the way to KTP Hospital. LOL.

But we reveal the truth eventually. Felt kinda bad yeah. Haha.

Lonely morning

2012-01-12T16:09:00.003+08:00

Hey. I'm at Sun Plaza's Ya Kun now.

Alone. Waiting for Yvaine and Kar.

Gna play frisbee. :D

Well, my skills are rusty yeah.

But oh well, just play for fun.

To kill time. I've nothing better to do.

Anyway, mum cooked lunch today. :D

All my favourites!

There is Bah Kut Teh and otah from malaysia. Love it!!

And the veggie I love the most, but I don't know what it is call.

Yummy. Gna eat the same thing again for dinner. Haha.

Well, gtg. Need to meet the girls.

Genting trip with the girls. :D

2012-01-12T01:16:00.000+08:00

Weee. Genting Trip with Yq and Sw.
Wow. 3 days have passed. Thats fast.
It feels like I just went to genting ytd & I'm back today. Haha.
Well, the weather was unexpectedly cold.
Look at the fog. When you look out of your window, it feels like there is a wall in front of your window. (I don't understand the concept.) Haha, insider joke yo. ^^
During the second day, it rain (worst thing that can happen).
Well, a lot of rides could not be played, like corkcrew.
Sad life. I went to genting twice but in both trips I didn't get to play corkcrew. -.-
But nvm, at least I get to play flying coaster! :D
I've never seen genting so foggy and cold before.
Well, is it the effects of global warming?
The weather is so cold and foggy and I think thats why many rides can't work.
The temperature is too low for the machines to heat up and work.
For instant, pirate ship. It tried to swing upwards but failed (badly).
Making us so giddy. -.- Can't even swing high enough.

Left with no choice, we had to play indoor.
Bumper cars was fun. :D Well, I got the slowest car of all.
LOL. I look retarded. I tried to drive towards sw to bump her.
But by the time I reached, she had already drove away. -.-
I'm like a snail chasing after bee. Hahaha. Damn idiotic.

Speaking the truth, we didn't go to genting to play.
We went Genting to EAT. Hahaha.
Most of our time spent is eating, eating and eating.
Haha. We bought a lot of food!!!

Tried MarryBrown, taste like KFC.
Had a lot a lot of curry chicken. -.-

Ate stonegrill. :D Its niceeee!!
They have one outlet in JB City Square Mall.
The scallop is like super HUUUGGGEEE!!!! Love it!

Nyonya chee chong fun

Tasted the nyonya cuisine. The Chee Chong Fun there = Hor Fun in SG.
But it is nice. :D Love the Nasi Lemak chilli!!

Bought a lot of snacks back to Singapore for BBGS.
Knew they will eat it when they come my house for MJ.
Bought plum candy, egg biscuit, nyonya egg biscuit, yam biscuit, twisted biscuit and dried guava.
I'm so tempted to eat them now!!! Hahaha. #forevereating

I've also bought 1 top, 1 cardigan and 1 bag from cotton on.
The top and cardigan cost RM30 each and bag is RM5 each.
Well, I think its quite cheap. :D #budgetbarbie #forevershopping

I wanna go overseas again!!! YAY.

JB outing

2012-01-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

Went to JB together with BBGS. We went to the KSL (not KSP) shopping mall.
Bought a 2 tops. One knitted top and one mustard podka dots (which sw say it looks like shit colour.)
Well, 2 for Rm 50, I think its acceptable. :D
Bought 2 baby clothes for my cousin new born baby girl. :D
So cute!!!! Saw one jumper with a huge flower, damn cute!
I'll sure buy it if I had a baby. Haha.
Shall go JB shopping more often! Cheap clothes, cheap food.
Bought Auntie Ann pretzels and Beard papa for the girls.
Yummy, shall buy more often from JB.
So near, the only trouble is the customs.

Btw, we had the Stonegrill for lunch. Super yummy.
I had Tom Yum. We also tried the seafood grill.
The scallop was super huge. It taste like heaven.

After that, meet up with the girls.
Was running all the way from Malaysia's customs till cwp.
I tot I was late. Then later #foreverwaitingforapple
But no, I was second.
Can't believe yq was late! Its amazing. Haha.
Finally gave them the bracelet I bought from KL and the cards I did.
I really like the bracelet a lot. Like very meaningful to me. Hehe.
After doing all those cards, I realised we had very little photos taken with all 5 of us tgt.
We SHOULD take more photos tgt!!! :D

Hm.. I really suspect I'm suffering from Bipolar. (In case you don't know what is bipolar, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder )
Sigh. Mood swings.
So much words inside of me, but I just don't know how to say it out.
I don't know where to begin.
I don't know who to speak to.
Oh my gosh, Wo bu neng huang. Yao HOLD zhu.

Well, shall end off here. Nights.

Happy Birthday my PehPeh.

2012-01-04T23:43:00.001+08:00

Life is funny. Sometimes it feels like god is cracking a joke on you.
But oh well. This is life.
What is life without ups and downs?
What is life without trust and betrayal?
What is life without happiness and sadness?
What is life without loved ones and ones you dislike?
What is life without surprises and traumas?
What is life without laughters and tears?
What is life without hopes and fears?
What is life without true and false?

Things will not always go in the way you wanted them to.
You can't change others but you can definitely change your own mindset.

So many things to do tmr. Need to accompany my aunt to dialysis.
4hours, I think I'll be so bored. Shall bring my lovely lappy out. :D Hehe
But kinda heavy though.

Can't wait for this Saturday's outing with the girls. :D
Don't know where to go. But I think they are gna stayover at my house.
Speaking of that, Fel is sleeping over at my place today.
She is asleep on my bed while I'm still widely awake using com.
Haha. I'm so energetic. I can't sleep. :(
How how how?
What should I do?
Bored. I'm physically tired but mentally I'm not.

Anyway, today is my Peh Peh (Li Wei)'s bday.
Happy birthday peh peh. :D
Its been so long. But yeah we're still pehpeh & dehdeh.
Hope you enjoy your birthday and faster finish your torturous NS. :D

Happy Birthday Yvaine!

2012-01-03T22:07:00.001+08:00

This is a birthday video dedicated to Yvaine Chua from us.

Hehe. I make one okay. ^^

Did it in about 2.5hours. So rush.

Shall make video for everyone's birthday! Haha. Its fun!

Went to RP to give Yvaine a birthday surprise yo.
Haha. Think she didn't really expect us to go since its the first day of school.
She is 19 now yo. Oldest of our clique.
Each year, our birthday parteh gets more and more simpler.
Cause we really ran out of ideas. Haha.
Whats most important is our presence I guess. :)
Whats a parteh without everyone being present? Hehe.

Love you all my BBGS. :D
Love you all my lovely alien girls!

Once again, Happy Birthday Yvaine!

Genting Outing with BBGS

2011-12-31T13:01:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. Came back from Genting. Its our first overseas trip whereby everyone could make it! :D
It was super cold there.
The lowest I could remember was 12 Degrees Celsius.
Didn't know Genting could be so cold.
Look at the photos and you can imagine how much fog there is.
But its still fun cause its cold! Teehee.
Went to the bowling there. LOL. The bowling place looks like some club.
They blast clubbing music and the lights were blinking as if we're really gna club there.
Haha. Thats the first time I ever see a bowling place like this. Its so cool.

We played Bumper Cars!
Well, its my first time playing! Hahaha.
FUN FUN. :D Hehe.
Shall play again when I go with Sw and Yq.
There is also this spinner thing at the theme park. Super awesome! But giddy at the same time.
Kar, fel, yingni, ber, ray & kunyan went to play the Space Shot.
LOL. Yvaine, fabian & I didn't play. Hehe.
Looks super scary. Maybe one day if I'm really wild, I will play it. Haha.
The weather makes everything fun cause there is no sweat! :D

When it comes to bedtime....

MASK TIME! LOL.

On the journey home...

The plushies get bored.

And they say I look like Gin Gin... Do I??

Can't wait for next genting outing with the girls. :D

Hopefully we have time to go KL shopping, and also mushroom garden and strawberry farm!

2011-12-18T12:43:00.000+08:00

Long lost blog. Haha.
Had a great day out at ecp yesterday.
So much fun tgt yeah.
Its a waste that some of them had gone back to their respective countries while some have gone to the army.
But nvm I believe there will still be chance that we can meet up tgt.
Can't wait for xmas exchange on 23dec. Teehee.
I'm still thinking of what to buy for that person. LOL. I think its so LOL that I need to buy for him.
I'm so freaking curious who is my secret santa. Don't buy bra for me please.
My wishlist: Sling bag (cloth material), handbag (cloth material), bagpack & watch. Oh and MONEY. Haha.

Makeover

2011-11-20T19:44:00.003+08:00

 YIPPEEE. Make over for my room!

Its half way done! Left with the other side.

Stripes is so hard to paint. Shall do it next week or after As.

Anyway, I have a new "monitor" now. Its actually a LCD TV. LOL.

I'm so worried that it will damage my eyes. I hope no bah. *pray*

I'm gna make my room a wonderland after As.

So many books on my study desk now, waiting for me to clear them.

I can't wait for after As!!!

Anyway, check this out! 

This is so cute right? Hahaha. As round as a ball! Haha. Damn cute.

It belongs to fel yeah. Me want too!!

Coming up is MAOMAO! LOL.

This was taken on thursday after paper.

We went to YQ house to play mj.

No wrong, is play MAOMAO. LOL.

He is so cute la (so unlike the owner)

Keeps lie down and sleep. Even lie down on yq's stone-like bed. Haha.

 He even rest his head on my hand and fall asleep!! Haha, Damn cute!!!! <3

Oh man. This makes me feel like having a dog.

Yesterday there was a random puppy on the road.

He kept on smelling me. Damn cute!!! Heehee.

Then after that I went to fel house. Saw her neighbour's cat.

OMG. DAMN DAMN CUTE! really look so much like garfield.

His meow is so gentle. I was patting him and he look so happy!!

When I stopped, he use his head to bump my hand and place his head under my hands again, wanting me to pat him again.

OMG, so damn cute. Like my bunny. Teehee.

I love animals! (I'm a good person yeah? Haha)